βHey, Mark? Mind if I take an extended break? Bout an hour?β
Looking up from the testing console, Mark grinned.
βHold your horses, Dale. Iβll call for lunch in an hour.β
βAnd I plan to be here to eat it.β
βSo, what do you need an hour break for?β
βI wanna to go down to Russo Construction and Meacham Contractors and punch the shit of the son-of-a-bitch who thought this was proper wiring.β
He yanked part of the melted generator from its housing frame and plopped it onto the workbench. βThatβs damn near criminal.β
Mark snickered.
βCalm down, man. Youβd only find empty buildings. They ceased operations and locked their doors ahead of the court filings.β
βWell, damn. I was looking forward to knocking some heads.β
βChill, Dale, chill. Itβll all get sorted and we will be well paid for fixing the mistakes of idiots.β
His crew foreman didnβt respond and Mark glanced in his direction.
βDale?β
βDammit it all to hell!β He kicked the workbench.
βNo, no, no! Do not give me any more bad news, man.β
βSorry, chief, but this shit is shot. Itβs nothing more than an expensive doorstop now.β
βDamn. Every time I give Bailey a damage report, the total climbs higher.β
βNot our fault. We donβt have bullshit for brains.β
Mark chuckled as Dale considered the damaged generator.
βWhat is it?β
βNothing, nothing. It just reminded me of a rack of lamb my wife made once. Dry and crusty on the outside dry and crusty on the inside. It was like eating ashes covered in mint jelly.β
Turning his head, Mark covered his mouth to hide his grin.
βI donβt care if you laugh. I survived. Just like I survived the boiled brisket, under-cooked fried chicken, overcooked flounder, and tostadas served on homemade tortillas hard enough to be used in an Olympic discus throw.β
Dropping his arms to his sides, Mark bellowed with laughter. βNo disrespect, Dale, but sounds like your wifeβs cooking skills are lacking.β
Dale smirked. βArenβt you kind?β βSounds like your wifeβs cooking skills are lacking,β he mimicked. βMy Susan is a horrible cook and all the recipes, online videos and cooking classes have been no help.β
βWhat do you do? Eat before you go home? Hide food in the garage?β
Daleβs face fell. βI eat every bite.β
βI donβt get it. If the food is that bad, why would-β
βEvery single meal my Susan makes for me takes great effort on her part and is done out of love.β He laid his hand over his heart.
βIβm lost, man, and wasnβt trying to be mean-β
βShe taught math at Cal State for fourteen years. Her cooking wasnβt a big deal in those days. She was busy, I was busy, the boys had lots of activities in and out of school, so we ate a lot of takeout. Both our moms were still living, and they always kept a casserole in the freezer for us.β
His demeanor changed and Mark could see the sadness in his eyes from across the room.
βThen my Susan got hit with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. What a nightmare. Doctors, misdiagnoses, medicationβ¦ it was too much for her and sent her into severe depression. She had to quit teaching, and withdrew from life, including the boys and me. And if that wasnβt enough to make us all loony, we lost both our moms during that time, within a year of each other. And I thought I would lose her too.β
βDale, Iβm sorry. I didnβt mean to get in your business or dredge-β
βBut we found a doctor up in Pasadena who gave us the right diagnosis and understood CFS. Thereβs no cure, but new medications and therapies, and a wealth of information made a big difference in Susanβs health. Itβs been nine years and we manage. Some days she can barely hold her head up and other days I get home and find her gardening.β
βYou have nothing to apologize for, dude. This is lifeβ¦ our lives.β
βYou speak in pluralβ¦’we’β¦’ourββ¦β
βHell yes, I do! Her fight is my fight. Weβre in this together.β
He approached his supervisor.
βI canβt feel her pain. I canβt take away her fatigue. But, I took vows “for better or for worse,Β through sickness and in healthβ to be at her side.β
βToo many donβt take those words to heartβ¦ or say them from the heart. Theyβre caught up in the feel-good moment of getting married and looking forward to the honeymoon. They havenβt been tested, and not everyone will pass.β
βI worked with this guy years back, Gill Fonner, who divorced his wife of seventeen years because she lost her breasts to cancer. You hear me? She had pieces of her body cut away so she could continue livingβ¦ and he bailed. Said it was too much for him to deal with.β
βAnother idiot, Sid Broome, had only been married four years when his wife had a massive stroke at thirty-six. She couldnβt speak or walk. He left.β
βDamn.β
βI know, right? But this story has a happy ending. She spent her forty-first birthday in a bikini on a beach in Cancunβ¦ with her new husband. She married one of the doctors who consulted on her case. Even at her worst, unable to do anything for herself, he saw her beautiful soul and stayed by her side.β
βWhat happened to Sid?β
βMiserable bastard lives down in San Pedro, working around the docks and drinking too much to numb his regrets.β
βHe got exactly what he deserves.β
βNo, he and Gill both deserve an ass-kicking. I tried to tell them both that marriage doesnβt work that way. Real love takes real sacrifice. You canβt have one without the other. You donβt get to walk away when it gets hard. Thatβs when youβre tested. Thatβs when you find out what kind of human being you are. And they suck.β
βAgreed. Now I want to beat the crap out of them.β
Dale chuckled.
βI started all this to say I know what Susanβs been through and how far sheβs come. I sat her down one day and told her she didnβt have to cook or clean a thing. The boys and I would do more, and if needed, Iβd hire someone to come in two or three times a week.β
βYouβre a good husband, Dale.β
βYeah? I regret ever bringing it up. I hurt my wife that day.β
βWhat do you mean?β
βSheβd lost her good health, career, professional contacts and even her friends stopped coming around because they didnβt understand why Susan was always so tired or always in bed. Iβm not angry, though. In the beginning, we didnβt understand either. But by offering to do more and hire help, I was taking away her familyβ¦ saying she was useless.β He hung his head. βShe cried for so long it scared me. I got down on my knees and begged her to forgive me.β
βOf course, she did, because she loves me as much as I love her. So, yes, I sit down to meals I sometimes cannot identify, but thereβs no way Iβll ever criticize or refuse any of them.β
Mark could only smile and shake his head, the lump in his throat making speech difficult.
βWhat?β
He cleared his throat. βThatβs the kind ofΒ love my parents shareβ¦ and the kind that eludes my brother and me.β
βTrust it will come and be patient. I was thirty when I met Susan.β
βIf you say so, man.β
βI do, and I also say we need to end this Hallmark movie. Iβm feeling way too sensitive.β He shuddered. βSure I canβt find one of those lame assholes and beat the shit of them?β
βAnd Daleβs back!β
They shared a chuckle.
βHey, how does Susan put up with your potty-mouth?β
βPotty-mouth?β Are we twelve? I swear, cuss and have been known to pitch a bitch, but never around my wife. That would be disrespectful.β
Markβs eyes widened. βBut you come to work and subject us to it?β
βYouβre a guy. Get over it.β
βHello? We work with women.β
βAnd have you heard what comes out of Trinaβs mouth? She makes me blush.β
Dale cackled to himself as he worked a chisel around the housing frame.
Mark grabbed his cell and updated Bailey by text.
While he waited for a response, Daleβs words weighed on his mind.
Real love takes real sacrifice. You canβt have one without the other.
Had he sacrificed enough for Yvonne?
It had been three weeks since he closed his condo door in her face, but she still invaded his thoughts.
He hadnβt reached out but neither had she, and she was the one who issued the ultimatum.
Still, the icy fingers of guilt crept up the back of his neck.
Have I put money and material things ahead of our relationship?
He shook his head to clear his thoughts.
Yvonne never asked me for anything. I offered.
Stop being a schmuck.
He frowned, glancing to his left and right. Dale was across the room and the rest of his crew was one level down.
What has Yvonne ever done for you? Name one thing sheβs done from her heart. Better still name one time sheβs told you she loves you and it wasnβt in a sing-songy voice like she was talking to a pet.
Bowing his head, Mark rubbed his eyes.
He was losing his mind.
Not only was he getting a smack-down by his subconscious⦠it was right.
#
Intending to run in and change, Mark parked in the guest lot of his condo instead of underground.
Bailey said things were beyond ugly with the contractors and told Mark to lock the site down and give his crew the rest of the week off at straight pay.
He hadnβt had five straight days off since the holidays and sent a text to his brother inviting him to dinner.
Mark hoped Prentiss could get the time off too and ride with him up to Fresno to see their parents.
He stopped and emptied his mailbox then took the walkway to his place.
βMark?β
Looking over his shoulder, he saw Yvonne standing under a tree in the courtyard. His chest tightened.
She was breath-taking in a burgundy and crème jumpsuit that hugged her full hips. Her hair fell in tiny ringlets around her face, but the hard expression she wore ruined the vision and sent him into defensive mode.
βWhat are you doing here, Yvonne?β
βWe need to talk about us.β
βI donβt want to rehash this-β
βI donβt give a damn what you want. Iβm pregnant and youβre going to marry me.β
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Mark was just getting used to being single, now he and Yvonne are going to be parents. His dream girl is becoming a nightmare. Still, he wonders if marriage would be what they need to stabilize their lives.