โHey, Mark? Mind if I take an extended break? Bout an hour?โ
Looking up from the testing console, Mark grinned.
โHold your horses, Dale. Iโll call for lunch in an hour.โ
โAnd I plan to be here to eat it.โ
โSo, what do you need an hour break for?โ
โI wanna to go down to Russo Construction and Meacham Contractors and punch the shit of the son-of-a-bitch who thought this was proper wiring.โ
He yanked part of the melted generator from its housing frame and plopped it onto the workbench. โThatโs damn near criminal.โ
Mark snickered.
โCalm down, man. Youโd only find empty buildings. They ceased operations and locked their doors ahead of the court filings.โ
โWell, damn. I was looking forward to knocking some heads.โ
โChill, Dale, chill. Itโll all get sorted and we will be well paid for fixing the mistakes of idiots.โ
His crew foreman didnโt respond and Mark glanced in his direction.
โDale?โ
โDammit it all to hell!โ He kicked the workbench.
โNo, no, no! Do not give me any more bad news, man.โ
โSorry, chief, but this shit is shot. Itโs nothing more than an expensive doorstop now.โ
โDamn. Every time I give Bailey a damage report, the total climbs higher.โ
โNot our fault. We donโt have bullshit for brains.โ
Mark chuckled as Dale considered the damaged generator.
โWhat is it?โ
โNothing, nothing. It just reminded me of a rack of lamb my wife made once. Dry and crusty on the outside dry and crusty on the inside. It was like eating ashes covered in mint jelly.โ
Turning his head, Mark covered his mouth to hide his grin.
โI donโt care if you laugh. I survived. Just like I survived the boiled brisket, under-cooked fried chicken, overcooked flounder, and tostadas served on homemade tortillas hard enough to be used in an Olympic discus throw.โ
Dropping his arms to his sides, Mark bellowed with laughter. โNo disrespect, Dale, but sounds like your wifeโs cooking skills are lacking.โ
Dale smirked. โArenโt you kind?โ โSounds like your wifeโs cooking skills are lacking,โ he mimicked. โMy Susan is a horrible cook and all the recipes, online videos and cooking classes have been no help.โ
โWhat do you do? Eat before you go home? Hide food in the garage?โ
Daleโs face fell. โI eat every bite.โ
โI donโt get it. If the food is that bad, why would-โ
โEvery single meal my Susan makes for me takes great effort on her part and is done out of love.โ He laid his hand over his heart.
โIโm lost, man, and wasnโt trying to be mean-โ
โShe taught math at Cal State for fourteen years. Her cooking wasnโt a big deal in those days. She was busy, I was busy, the boys had lots of activities in and out of school, so we ate a lot of takeout. Both our moms were still living, and they always kept a casserole in the freezer for us.โ
His demeanor changed and Mark could see the sadness in his eyes from across the room.
โThen my Susan got hit with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. What a nightmare. Doctors, misdiagnoses, medicationโฆ it was too much for her and sent her into severe depression. She had to quit teaching, and withdrew from life, including the boys and me. And if that wasnโt enough to make us all loony, we lost both our moms during that time, within a year of each other. And I thought I would lose her too.โ
โDale, Iโm sorry. I didnโt mean to get in your business or dredge-โ
โBut we found a doctor up in Pasadena who gave us the right diagnosis and understood CFS. Thereโs no cure, but new medications and therapies, and a wealth of information made a big difference in Susanโs health. Itโs been nine years and we manage. Some days she can barely hold her head up and other days I get home and find her gardening.โ
โYou have nothing to apologize for, dude. This is lifeโฆ our lives.โ
โYou speak in pluralโฆ’we’โฆ’ourโโฆโ
โHell yes, I do! Her fight is my fight. Weโre in this together.โ
He approached his supervisor.
โI canโt feel her pain. I canโt take away her fatigue. But, I took vows “for better or for worse,ย through sickness and in healthโ to be at her side.โ
โToo many donโt take those words to heartโฆ or say them from the heart. Theyโre caught up in the feel-good moment of getting married and looking forward to the honeymoon. They havenโt been tested, and not everyone will pass.โ
โI worked with this guy years back, Gill Fonner, who divorced his wife of seventeen years because she lost her breasts to cancer. You hear me? She had pieces of her body cut away so she could continue livingโฆ and he bailed. Said it was too much for him to deal with.โ
โAnother idiot, Sid Broome, had only been married four years when his wife had a massive stroke at thirty-six. She couldnโt speak or walk. He left.โ
โDamn.โ
โI know, right? But this story has a happy ending. She spent her forty-first birthday in a bikini on a beach in Cancunโฆ with her new husband. She married one of the doctors who consulted on her case. Even at her worst, unable to do anything for herself, he saw her beautiful soul and stayed by her side.โ
โWhat happened to Sid?โ
โMiserable bastard lives down in San Pedro, working around the docks and drinking too much to numb his regrets.โ
โHe got exactly what he deserves.โ
โNo, he and Gill both deserve an ass-kicking. I tried to tell them both that marriage doesnโt work that way. Real love takes real sacrifice. You canโt have one without the other. You donโt get to walk away when it gets hard. Thatโs when youโre tested. Thatโs when you find out what kind of human being you are. And they suck.โ
โAgreed. Now I want to beat the crap out of them.โ
Dale chuckled.
โI started all this to say I know what Susanโs been through and how far sheโs come. I sat her down one day and told her she didnโt have to cook or clean a thing. The boys and I would do more, and if needed, Iโd hire someone to come in two or three times a week.โ
โYouโre a good husband, Dale.โ
โYeah? I regret ever bringing it up. I hurt my wife that day.โ
โWhat do you mean?โ
โSheโd lost her good health, career, professional contacts and even her friends stopped coming around because they didnโt understand why Susan was always so tired or always in bed. Iโm not angry, though. In the beginning, we didnโt understand either. But by offering to do more and hire help, I was taking away her familyโฆ saying she was useless.โ He hung his head. โShe cried for so long it scared me. I got down on my knees and begged her to forgive me.โ
โOf course, she did, because she loves me as much as I love her. So, yes, I sit down to meals I sometimes cannot identify, but thereโs no way Iโll ever criticize or refuse any of them.โ
Mark could only smile and shake his head, the lump in his throat making speech difficult.
โWhat?โ
He cleared his throat. โThatโs the kind ofย love my parents shareโฆ and the kind that eludes my brother and me.โ
โTrust it will come and be patient. I was thirty when I met Susan.โ
โIf you say so, man.โ
โI do, and I also say we need to end this Hallmark movie. Iโm feeling way too sensitive.โ He shuddered. โSure I canโt find one of those lame assholes and beat the shit of them?โ
โAnd Daleโs back!โ
They shared a chuckle.
โHey, how does Susan put up with your potty-mouth?โ
โPotty-mouth?โ Are we twelve? I swear, cuss and have been known to pitch a bitch, but never around my wife. That would be disrespectful.โ
Markโs eyes widened. โBut you come to work and subject us to it?โ
โYouโre a guy. Get over it.โ
โHello? We work with women.โ
โAnd have you heard what comes out of Trinaโs mouth? She makes me blush.โ
Dale cackled to himself as he worked a chisel around the housing frame.
Mark grabbed his cell and updated Bailey by text.
While he waited for a response, Daleโs words weighed on his mind.
Real love takes real sacrifice. You canโt have one without the other.
Had he sacrificed enough for Yvonne?
It had been three weeks since he closed his condo door in her face, but she still invaded his thoughts.
He hadnโt reached out but neither had she, and she was the one who issued the ultimatum.
Still, the icy fingers of guilt crept up the back of his neck.
Have I put money and material things ahead of our relationship?
He shook his head to clear his thoughts.
Yvonne never asked me for anything. I offered.
Stop being a schmuck.
He frowned, glancing to his left and right. Dale was across the room and the rest of his crew was one level down.
What has Yvonne ever done for you? Name one thing sheโs done from her heart. Better still name one time sheโs told you she loves you and it wasnโt in a sing-songy voice like she was talking to a pet.
Bowing his head, Mark rubbed his eyes.
He was losing his mind.
Not only was he getting a smack-down by his subconsciousโฆ it was right.
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Intending to run in and change, Mark parked in the guest lot of his condo instead of underground.
Bailey said things were beyond ugly with the contractors and told Mark to lock the site down and give his crew the rest of the week off at straight pay.
He hadnโt had five straight days off since the holidays and sent a text to his brother inviting him to dinner.
Mark hoped Prentiss could get the time off too and ride with him up to Fresno to see their parents.
He stopped and emptied his mailbox then took the walkway to his place.
โMark?โ
Looking over his shoulder, he saw Yvonne standing under a tree in the courtyard. His chest tightened.
She was breath-taking in a burgundy and crรจme jumpsuit that hugged her full hips. Her hair fell in tiny ringlets around her face, but the hard expression she wore ruined the vision and sent him into defensive mode.
โWhat are you doing here, Yvonne?โ
โWe need to talk about us.โ
โI donโt want to rehash this-โ
โI donโt give a damn what you want. Iโm pregnant and youโre going to marry me.โ
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Mark was just getting used to being single, now he and Yvonne are going to be parents. His dream girl is becoming a nightmare. Still, he wonders if marriage would be what they need to stabilize their lives.